Six months since my last post. It seems like a lifetime ago. But wonderful things have happend in that time, God has been so faithful beyond what I can comprehend. He has healed my heart, fully and completely. He has brought me through the crisis of my faith, and on this side, I am in love with Jesus and revelling in the marvel of His glorious presence in my life. I have NO greater joy. My relationship with Jesus - and it is a REAL relationship again! - is so precious to me. Every day the Lord is activating my heart and mind to greater depths of love for Him and awareness of how much I need Him. He is convicting my heart of sin, and empowering me to repent from those sins and leave them behind. The Word is coming alive to me, it's a pearl of greatest price. My insecurites are beind left behind, I am gaining new vison and new goals for my life. Fear and self are losing their power over me and I walk in new victory every day. I am learning to take every thought captive and to cast my cares upon Him, because I KNOW He cares for me! I am seeing the depravity of sin, in my own life and in the lives around me. I have a heart to see Christ and Him crucified to become the center of our world again, I want to see hearts TRULY seek after God. I am seeing changes that I need to make in my life, things that are accepted but NOT RIGHT - my fitted clothes; movies with unholy content; music that draws me towards my own earthly desires; attitudes that are about ME and not God. The list goes on. The Lord is giving me snippets of truth each day that build upon each other, 'til they boil over into an immense truth that causes me to stagger under the weight of it's power.
I could go on. But suffice to say, I have returned to the Lord and He is more than I ever knew He was. He is everything.