tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-787323131254633449.post6680921168026736771..comments2023-07-01T03:21:08.226-07:00Comments on Nothing Less | Kellie: Tuesday ~ New Year's DayKelliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07285214309808207294noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-787323131254633449.post-11488802089693151752013-01-01T21:56:12.828-08:002013-01-01T21:56:12.828-08:00Gosh, it's amazing how alone one feels when go...Gosh, it's amazing how alone one feels when going through something like this, but then you find someone who is willing to speak out and suddenly you find that you are not alone in your struggles! <br /><br />I've recently realized that I've been trying to "prove" to God that I deserved a husband, Maybe if I just worked a little bit harder and gave up a little bit more, God would bless in me in the way I wanted Him too.....needless to say bargaining didn't work (I always seem to try though) and instead of appreciating the blessings He was showering on me, I became distant and angry with Him.<br /><br />I finally admitted to myself what I had been doing and knew I need to stop, but couldn't seem to stop being mad that He was "ignoring" all my good deeds! This move has really made me rely on God, no more safety net of familiar places and faces for me! It really made me realize just how much I have been missing my relationship with my Savior!<br /><br />I've slowly been getting back into the habit of meeting with Him every day and though I know the ground lost is not going to be gained back instantaneously (I wish!) and the fears and doubts still creep up on me and gnaw at my edges, God is good and He's with me all the time. He has never forsaken me even when I had shoved Him aside and neglected Him! <br /><br />Thanks for being brave and posting this, I'll keep you in my prayers! =)<br /><br /><br /><br />Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09944679291709892626noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-787323131254633449.post-76478137789008396862013-01-01T21:03:39.857-08:002013-01-01T21:03:39.857-08:00Oh my dear friend...I hope I am counted as one of ...Oh my dear friend...I hope I am counted as one of those friends steady in the present, though we've only known each other but a few months. <3 Coming to know *you*, & your faith-journey--such as highlighted in this post & of course our emails--has been an inexplicable blessing. Reading this, my heart hurts for you, having to endure so much...but to *also* see how far God's brought you, & how He is restoring you...well. Let me just say that your heart is a truly beautiful work in progress...as we *all* are in many different ways. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3<br /><br />I hope sometime in 2013, I can pick you up from an airport & give you a *huge* hug. {And yes, that's a formal invitation! =D }Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-787323131254633449.post-41420226581970632112013-01-01T20:43:00.238-08:002013-01-01T20:43:00.238-08:00Oh, my word. This was *exactly* what I needed, Kel...Oh, my word. This was *exactly* what I needed, Kellie. Thank you so much for sharing your heart. Your journey is so similar to mine, and I'm slowly pulling out of it, but that inner core belief that God just takes and doesn't care about anything but making us miserable - that's exactly me. <br /><br />The last two years have been the hardest of my life with my aunt and brother passing away, a terrible relationship experience, losing our church and having people we loved like family turn on us, and people we trusted show their true colors - the combination of grief and stress sucked me into depression and with it I just lost the belief that God ever wanted to give us GOOD. In my black hole I failed to see the many enormous - but subtle - answers to prayer that He gave. It's been the most horrific and miserable time, especially as it followed one of the highest points in my spiritual walk (isn't that the way it is? :)). I still am struggling with that numb feeling, especially as circumstances haven't really gotten better in my life, but I think I'm seeing light at the end of the tunnel. :) <br /><br />Anyway, loooong comment, but just had to share what a complete and total blessing this post was. Happy New Year and I pray that the Lord blesses you exceedingly abundantly above all you could ask or think this year! :) Alexandrahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17437117457544744702noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-787323131254633449.post-32869539185634312932013-01-01T20:38:21.766-08:002013-01-01T20:38:21.766-08:00Wishing you a wonderful year, Kellie - hope it'...Wishing you a wonderful year, Kellie - hope it's filled with great things and learning for us all. :) <br /><br />Happy 2013! Rissihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11378400717440822186noreply@blogger.com