Monday, August 2, 2010

Looking back over the past 12 months of my life, I would definitely label myself as a troubled and unstable individual! But despite the despair and depression that I drowned in for so long, this past year has been such an important part of who I have become. My faith in Christ, which I had always believed to be so strong and unshakable, was completely torn down. But the glory and wonder of our God, is that when He tears down, it's only to build back up again, better and stronger than it was before. And that's what's happened with me. In some ways I feel wiser and more mature, but at the same time, I feel almost like a baby Christian, as the Lord is each day taking my faith to the very basics of Christianity, and I believe for the first time, an invaluable and necessary foundation is being laid down. No longer do I have a relationship with Christ that has been based on my emotional experiences, altho I do not discredit those experiences. But now, I have walked a valley and climbed a mountain that has laid brick by brick the solid foundation of truth and reality in Christ. It's been a very difficult year. I still have scars and wounds yet to heal, I'm not done with this process. But will I ever be truly "done?" Maybe this trial will fade as the years pass, but I know that my journey with Christ is never over. It's goes on for eternity.

Praise the Lord who has given me wings, so that I now can soar on wings like the eagles.