Maybe I was having an identity crisis, I have no idea, but I'm not even joking...I came home from work and had an full-blown emotional meltdown. That lasted all weekend. I prayed and cried and begged and pleaded with God to somehow get me from this new job, to provide something else, to allow me to just quit the job Monday morning. It was all I could think about; I was depressed and moody, half the time just staring off into space. It was literally some serious soul searching.
But fast forward one week exactly to tonight.
I just got back from a closing shift at my new job, my new job that I LOVE. Yup, I love it. I'm now actually out on the floor doing that think I was hired to do, although I'm still technically in "training mode." All those terms and Target jargon that made no sense to me last week now actually do make sense (although why they give special names such as "push" and "pull" and "QMOS" to things that really just mean "put on the shelf" and "take off the shelf" and "throw away", I'll never know) and I'm realizing all those things that this job has me do that absolutely terrified me beyond hysteria when they were just words in my head really are just very ordinary types of every-day routines.
I'm making new friends, building new relationships, stretching my skill-set, learning something new every day and drying my hands out from working in the freezers half the day. Well, that last one's not a perk, but it is a reality. :)
But what this job has been and is continuing to teach me is God's faithfulness. Wow, I have seen God in action. I stressed and agonized and literally wept over having to go back in to work all last weekend. I prayed my heart out and so many of my family were praying right along with me. I went into work again Monday morning, nervous, scared, worried...and had a great day. A really great day. It was in such utter contrast to the week before that there was no way I could chalk that up to anything other than God at work and in a big, big, big way. This week has continued to be amazing and here I am, one week later on another Friday night, excited about my job and not even nervous that Sunday morning will be my first day flying solo, no longer in "training mode" but fulfilling my duties as official Market PA.
Every day I've seen God continue to guide me, help me understand my job and it's intricacies, helping me to be bold, courageous and friendly with my new co-workers. He's sent me some great people who've trained me well, with patience, graciousness and total acceptance of me assuming a position of leadership over them. Which is still unbelievably crazy.
So, this post isn't here to entertain you or show case my recent photos (poor camera has been rather neglected as of late). Rather, I'm writing this post because God has done a big thing for me and that's exciting to me. And also I write this post because, in a way, it's me saying thank you to God for all the ways I've seen Him pull for me this week.
"My soul magnifies the Lord, for He that is mighty has done great things and worthy is His name."