Friday, August 23, 2013

Friday | Week Two Report: This Little PA Went to Market


A week ago tonight I came home from work crying and to say I was hysterically crying wouldn't be a lie.To say it had been a rough day at my new job would be a blatant understatement. Nothing made sense in my training (which had consisted of reading online lessons on the computer all day) and I felt like this was a job that I couldn't do. Being the "newbie" made that feeling magnified, I felt like everybody was watching me as I stepped up onto this semi-management stage, poised and ready to throw rotten tomatoes at me the moment I tried to do my job. It was crazy.

Maybe I was having an identity crisis, I have no idea, but I'm not even joking...I came home from work and had an full-blown emotional meltdown. That lasted all weekend. I prayed and cried and begged and pleaded with God to somehow get me from this new job, to provide something else, to allow me to just quit the job Monday morning. It was all I could think about; I was depressed and moody, half the time just staring off into space. It was literally some serious soul searching.

But fast forward one week exactly to tonight.

I just got back from a closing shift at my new job, my new job that I LOVE. Yup, I love it. I'm now actually out on the floor doing that think I was hired to do, although I'm still technically in "training mode." All those terms and Target jargon that made no sense to me last week now actually do make sense (although why they give special names such as "push" and "pull" and "QMOS" to things that really just mean "put on the shelf" and "take off the shelf" and "throw away", I'll never know) and I'm realizing all those things that this job has me do that absolutely terrified me beyond hysteria when they were just words in my head really are just very ordinary types of every-day routines.

I'm making new friends, building new relationships, stretching my skill-set, learning something new every day and drying my hands out from working in the freezers half the day. Well, that last one's not a perk, but it is a reality. :)

But what this job has been and is continuing to teach me is God's faithfulness. Wow, I have seen God in action. I stressed and agonized and literally wept over having to go back in to work all last weekend. I prayed my heart out and so many of my family were praying right along with me. I went into work again Monday morning, nervous, scared, worried...and had a great day. A really great day. It was in such utter contrast to the week before that there was no way I could chalk that up to anything other than God at work and in a big, big, big way. This week has continued to be amazing and here I am, one week later on another Friday night, excited about my job and not even nervous that Sunday morning will be my first day flying solo, no longer in "training mode" but fulfilling my duties as official Market PA.

Every day I've seen God continue to guide me, help me understand my job and it's intricacies, helping me to be bold, courageous and friendly with my new co-workers. He's sent me some great people who've trained me well, with patience, graciousness and total acceptance of me assuming a position of leadership over them. Which is still unbelievably crazy.

So, this post isn't here to entertain you or show case my recent photos (poor camera has been rather neglected as of late). Rather, I'm writing this post because God has done a big thing for me and that's exciting to me. And also I write this post because, in a way, it's me saying thank you to God for all the ways I've seen Him pull for me this week.

"My soul magnifies the Lord, for He that is mighty has done great things and worthy is His name."

21 comments:

  1. Go, God!!!

    Thanks for sharing this, Kellie.

    ReplyDelete
  2. I did the same thing! Sobbed all the way home and well into the night after my first day of work! Bit now love my job, glad you are adjusting too!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Ah, it's comforting, my dear KatySue, to know that I'm not the only one who had a hysterical breakdown over a new job! :D

      Delete
  3. Aw, sorry it was a rough start Kellie. But I am delighted to hear you are adjusting now and enjoying this new job! Good for you - sounds like its becoming more than "just a job" and that is wonderful. :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks, Rissi! I do like it a lot and I'm really glad about it. :D

      Delete
  4. Wow--oh my friend, while my heart hurts for you & everything that went on tht first week, I'm SO glad now to hear how God's moved & worked! <3

    ReplyDelete
  5. So glad to hear of how God is working so personally in your life! And I'm proud of you for doing the hard things even when your feeling were screaming for the opposite. Praise Jesus for His empowering grace!

    ReplyDelete
  6. What a wonderful testimony!! *bites nails for own job worries* I'm hoping the Lord will do the same for me :D

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I hope so, too, Sharon! I tell you what...needing jobs and having a hard job are two of the hardest things in life and that's the truth. But God always provides, as long as we are willing to see His provision even in the things we may not like!

      Delete
  7. Encouraging to hear, since I'm sorta in the same position as you were last weekend. So thanks :)

    ReplyDelete
  8. Way to go girl! I love seeing God work in unexpected ways. In my life especially it has been so hard to trust that I am doing God's will in regards to work. I am at a job where I never expected myself to be, but I wholeheartedly know it's where God wants us right now because everything came together in such a way that could only be God. I am so happy work got better for you, I know you're a superstar! :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Same here, girl! Never thought I'd be a Target girl, but lo, here I stand! Life really is a roller coaster sometimes!

      Delete
  9. This is beautiful, Kellie!! God is so good! =)

    ReplyDelete
  10. Wow, girl. I can relate so much to this! From the coming home crying, to the wishing I could just quit. It has pushed me beyond my comfort zone and I've felt God with me through the whole journey. I still believe it was His divine favor that got me the job in the first place as I totally blew my interview lol. Now? I absolutely love it. I love my coworkers and being able to help people each day. It's not just a retail job to me anymore.

    ReplyDelete

Oooh, you're about to comment! How exciting! Know that you are SO MUCH MORE than just a name and a comment to me - you're a person I'd like to get to know! Make sure you check back, as I reply to each comment. I love getting to talk/correspond with each of you!