Saturday, November 23, 2013
Saturday | If I Could Really Get It
If you could fully, completely grasp an aspect of God, what would you choose?
My answer came to me last night as I was curled up in the rocking chair by the fire, drying my socks after wearing a pair of mudboots outside to get a few logs to stoke the fire. I thought mud boots were supposed to be waterproof? I was doing some thinking and praying…and maybe some worrying, too. A friend’s marriage. A friend who needs a job. My car inability to stay fixed. Financial stresses. Tough decisions. What if’s.
And it came to me that if I could grasp, really, really grasp something in my walk with God, I’d choose to understand how tight God’s hand really is over every situation.
Because there’s nothing under my control and I like being in control and so many of my stresses in life are over things over which only God has control. And wow, what would life be like if I was able to see every situation, every circumstance, ever tough moment…as inescapably vice-gripped in God’s hand? Insomuch that I never questioned whether God would pull through or how things would end up working out – it was just a rock-hard given in my mind that God had it under control. Every. Single. Time. Because right now…life seems a little bit wibbly-wobbly (timey-wimey, anyone?), unsure, unstable…sometimes even hopeless. I see the needs I have, the needs my family and friends have…and I don’t see God as clearly as I see those needs.
But I know that somehow in the mix of it that God is in control, that nothing is in flux, nothing in life is a free-fall…it is under the super-control of God’s direction.
But I rarely feel like I really understand that. But I wish I did. Because if I did….wow.