"There are shop boys, and there are boys who just happen to work in a shop for the time being."
I never once imagined that working at Target, specifically in the grocery section, would at times prove painful in the singleness department. Young moms come in with their kids, picking up the evening’s dinner, the laundry soap or a knickknack to make a house that much more their home. Young families come in together, the mom and dad chatting together and laughing with their little kids in the basket or in their arms. Sometimes young dads come in, a baby in their arms as they grab a quick item off the shelf, chatting away with a baby that can’t even talk back. And daily I see couples shopping together, holding hands and obviously in love.
All those people coming out of their cozy homes to buy what they need…and I’m just the girl stocking the shelves for them. The shop girl.
It’s been awhile since I really found myself missing that something in my life. For months, marriage has held no appeal and the independence-filled skies were the limit and should I have one day found myself married, I doubted whether or not I’d even want to have children at all. It’s been a great place to be – just me and my own future ahead.
All undermined by people who have no idea the stabs of pain hidden behind friendly eyes and a cheerful “can I help you find anything?” of the girl in the red and khaki.
So yeah, lately there’s been some heavy heart and empty smiles. I love being single (I really do, sometimes too much, actually) but I do have a purpose built inside the code of my DNA, put there by God when He created woman to be a wife on that very first day of human’s existence and honestly, that’s not going to change.
And once again, that’s okay and it’s normal. Read more on that here. But sometimes when being single lasts longer than we imagined…it’s hard and it’s lonely. So, anyways…just sayin’.
Single girls? Let’s bring it in: