Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Tuesday | Confessions From a Shop Girl

"There are shop boys, and there are boys who just happen to work in a shop for the time being."

I never once imagined that working at Target, specifically in the grocery section, would at times prove painful in the singleness department. Young moms come in with their kids, picking up the evening’s dinner, the laundry soap or a knickknack to make a house that much more their home. Young families come in together, the mom and dad chatting together and laughing with their little kids in the basket or in their arms. Sometimes young dads come in, a baby in their arms as they grab a quick item off the shelf, chatting away with a baby that can’t even talk back. And daily I see couples shopping together, holding hands and obviously in love.

All those people coming out of their cozy homes to buy what they need…and I’m just the girl stocking the shelves for them. The shop girl.

It’s been awhile since I really found myself missing that something in my life. For months, marriage has held no appeal and the independence-filled skies were the limit and should I have one day found myself married, I doubted whether or not I’d even want to have children at all. It’s been a great place to be – just me and my own future ahead.

All undermined by people who have no idea the stabs of pain hidden behind friendly eyes and a cheerful “can I help you find anything?” of the girl in the red and khaki.

So yeah, lately there’s been some heavy heart and empty smiles. I love being single (I really do, sometimes too much, actually) but I do have a purpose built inside the code of my DNA, put there by God when He created woman to be a wife on that very first day of human’s existence and honestly, that’s not going to change.

And once again, that’s okay and it’s normal. Read more on that here. But sometimes when being single lasts longer than we imagined…it’s hard and it’s lonely. So, anyways…just sayin’.

Single girls? Let’s bring it in:



  1. I'm right there with you, Kellie! I think we're pretty close in age, so I completely understand the ups and downs. I am still trusting the Lord to bring just the right person at just the right time, even on difficult days. His plan is perfect; I just need to continually remind myself of that! :)

    Sending a hug your way...

  2. Is there a way for me to say amen over and over again? Because I feel ya, girl. I feel ya.

    You know, I almost feel like I'm in a similar boat. As a preschool teacher, I'm surrounded by families of all kinds and I see parents and kids and babies galore. And while I, too, am for the most part content with my singleness, it's tough to be surrounded by it all and not have twinges of pain. It hurts to see it around us--especially when we want something so bad.

    But like you said, it's normal. We just have to keep our eyes pointed to Him; something that is definitely easier said than done. Sooo grateful for your honesty. And yes, us single ladies have got to stick together! It's funny, because I've been feeling the urge to write a singleness post and have read a few other singleness posts lately. I think it's definitely in the water. :)

    p.s. I've missed your face in the blogworld, girl! It's good to have you back. :)

    1. High five from a fellow preschool teacher! =)
      Glad I'm not the only one feelings the extra singleness these cool fall breezes!

  3. Gosh, glad I'm not the only one feeling a little extra single this fall.....seems like everyone around me is in a relationship and I'm just over here with my Christmas music and Starbucks, covered in glitter and snot, sighing and wondering what on earth gods plan is for my life!!

  4. I hear you, Kellie.
    This fall, I'm feeling it more than before. All this summer I thought by this fall that the one whom I've grown to love would have spoken up and we'd be 'official'. Well, he did...only to tell me, in the kindest possible way, that he just wants to be friends. It's going to take some time for that to heal. In the meantime, I'm clinging to my Father, who is always faithful, and continues to pour out His love and blessings on me. I truly thank Him and praise Him for everything that has happened this past year. It's been incredible. Anyway...
    I know the feeling. Praying for you and thinking about you. :)
    Love and blessings,

  5. As Kiki and you said above, we gotta stick together and it's definitely in the water. My singleness has definitely been hitting me lately and I'm trying to get that joy back!

    You are definitely not alone, sister!

  6. I feel ya. I work with children everyday as a pediatric nurse practitioner and even though I usually am quite content (maybe TOO content) with my singleness (being an introvert helps a bit!), I sometimes have that pang on my heart when I see beautiful, healthy young families and I wonder when I'll be sitting on the other side of the room, asking a nurse practitioner or pediatrician about the kooky things my newborn has been doing or having them look at a weird rash on my little angel.

  7. These photos are so pretty.(: We singles have to stick together! I've been feeling that way a lot lately myself...I think it may have something to do with the fact that just about everyone seems to be getting married, people I've grown up with and known for years, dating, getting married, and starting families. It's easy to contract a case of PMS (poor me syndrome!) when you see all that! But just as you said, God has a purpose for us, and everything that happens will be for the best.(:

    Hope you're doing well! I feel like I haven't visited your blog in forever!

    decked out in ruffles


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