Friday, July 5, 2013
Friday | Observations of the Unemployed
Hey, friends! It's now been four whole days of being officially unemployed.
In that time, I've hung around my house, cleaned my room, ate the last of my ice cream, tried to find things to do, filled out job applications, watched Psych, painted my nails, played in the sprinklers with my niece and nephew, laid on my bed and stared at my gray walls. As you can tell, I've been very busy. Not. I've actually been nearly bored out of my mind. My family has been out of town for the week, both my roommates were gone, I had no job...and whereas I'm not complaining, there have been some moments where I felt profoundly bored, lonely and useless. Especially knowing that laying around my house was NOT garnering me a pay check. But I've sent out applications and prayed like a....person who prays a lot (?), and so now I'm sort of waiting for further direction or new opportunities.
God is good, though. And in this unexpected and very strange season of being without a job after being a full-time working woman for four years, I've made a few observations about life.
Sonic Happy Hour. A better choice for me when I just need that Route 44 Root Beer, easy ice.
Driving to the coast. As therapeutic as it may sound, spending the money on gas probably isn't a good idea.
My sister invites me over for dinner. Free food. Free really good food. Of course, inviting me over may also have had to do with the rest of the family being gone...
Boredom. I think I forgot what that was like.
On the flipside of boredom...I have free time! Long, gorgeous hours of time to just do whatever I want, without the pressure of having to work the next day or only having so much time to enjoy being home. It's....strangely liberating! I think I could get used to this. But I'd better not.
Fireworks are so much more fun when you're not worrying about having to be up early the next day for work. Oh and just a side note, fireworks are best enjoyed with a little 2 year old niece bedecked in glow-stick bracelets sits in your lap, cheering and clapping the whole time. Or when a 3 year old niece snuggles up next to your arm and calmly watches the show. Or when the 2 year old nephew plunks down in your lap and won't stops saying "I like these!" on repeat.
And what I like the most...how everything is taking on that God shine. I see things as more valuable and more important. How every Christian song I hear seems to mean something to me right now, how I see His blessings around me so much more, my family's already sky-rocketing value looks even higher, I'm more thankful for my room in my house as I ponder the possibility of having to leave it if I can't find a job before my next rent check is due, and how even though my faith is small, I'm still seeing God's hand around me as I'm reminded afresh that really, everything I have right now really is a testimony of what God has already provided. And He is faithful to complete that which He has begun.